胸口隐隐作痛，我似乎就快要窒息了。
窗外的雨似乎听见了我内心深处的感伤
那乌云密布的天空述说了我近来的心情
雨代我将那无法掉的泪，稀里哗啦的他在这小岛上。

“雨，不停落下来”

“天天都有落叶，特别是今夜”
自称想成为逗人开心的小丑
妄想想成为丘比特的我
为何那一幕让我隐隐约约感到时间似乎停止了
我像突然患了耳鸣一样，再也听不到周围的声音。

装作若无其事是我唯一能做的。
可我不知不觉偷偷地望着他们的背影。
我是怎么了？
真谈不起开心
历史像旧片子一样，断断续续的重播着。
商会闷闷的感觉又再次涌到我的心头，我快窒息了！

“看著你无暇的表情
我猜不透这是你的心
我一直冷静却好像走不出这命理
好孤寂

我开始失去了勇力
而你却好像在游戏
我假装清楚看清你的心
终于我选择了离去“

常常担任他人感情顾问的我好像没那个资格帮助别人
在感情路上，我不断地遇到瓶颈。
也许着些零零碎碎的点点滴滴可与他人分享，让他人从中获教与救。
这也许是我在世能做的吧！

以绝交的那位朋友也许也在暗暗自喜吧
说我是个小之心正度君子之腹好了，我想听见他那恶毒地在说“哈哈！她活该！到现在都没有女友！

我问为什么我常是个旁观者，局外人?

也许那是所谓的日有所思，夜有所梦。
可这朝思暮想的对象似乎是位我无法高攀的女孩。
虽然她符合了我在心里例下的条件，但一切的一切都已太迟了。
她已心中有属， 她已有她

我也太迟钝了！
就像她当初对我的猜疑，我也一样地以为她对我没多过于朋友的特感。
当时的我也刚好在努力地走出我那段断了的初恋。
我以为她也一样，但老天愚弄人啊！
就这样，在天地与人不和谐的情况下，我错过了良机。

可惜！

我总不能拆散那段刚结合又甜蜜的感情吧！
毕竟，她的对象也比我好百倍。

只要她开心快乐，其余的都不重要吧！
这也是身为朋友能做的。

不知为何你一直道歉，真希望我能切切实实地了解你。
也许第六感告诉了我什么，但我不想乱下判断。

真相往往都是残酷的
也许我一直都在逃避，不敢面对现实
也许我一直都在自欺欺人吧！

但我也对得起自己了吧？
虽然我没坦然地表态，但我也在此说出心底的话。

自私的我好像忽略了最初美表态的原由- 我不想给她添多些不必要的烦恼。
我不想扰乱她的思维，不想在她解决自己问题的时候落井下石。

想问，这也许也是你想要知道的吧？
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One seriously has to do some proper stretchings before working out. My recent experience reinforces my awareness of that in a painful way. I did more than a thousand of skipping on Tuesday without any warm-up. Till now, I am still having a sharp pain in my right calf. Having to walk up and down the stairs at work is nevertheless a pain in the ass. Based on the current situation, I doubt I can jog anytime soon.

Yea, I asked for it!
Instead of the initial plan of meeting C Jie for dinner, I changed my mind and headed down to NUS to meet my "ritual" gang. I swear; if I have a choice, I will choose not to eat for the next few days! I personally had wanton mee, popiah and milk bubble tea for dinner. At around two plus in the morning, we went for supper when I had two roti prata and bundung. GOSH! What a super-duper sinful night.

It felt good to be back in school. The only pity is that it wasn't daytime. After dinner, WY and I walked around the heart of NUS for some photo taking and exploring. I come to a conclusion that NUS can be quite a boring place. HA! Every corner looks alike! *shake head. And since it was night time, we aren't able to capture much. (Photos will be uploaded on Facebook soon)

I slept at four plus in the morning and hence it explains why I feel a little edgy today. All in all, I didn't regret spending my night in school than to club at PLAY.

p.s. Thanks to the overdose of food intake, I am feeling a little uncomfortable. TSK! I learnt my lesson!

*speaking to nobody, except C Jie. MSN status: appear offline. Don't feel like speaking to anyone else. BOO!

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